Help read. chirstian question also?

ok im 14 guy. am i gay. i look at both gay and straight . but im not use to what a vigina looks like. i mean nice until the guy opens it. i mean i think girl in real life look pretty hot. and i got erextion thinking about them. but now i dont very much. and another question is there a god. cause god say gayness is wrong and a disire but it seem like im stuck with it and not a disire. but i dont no if im gay or not. im depressed.